Homehmm so okay, i've been blabbering some news lately on my tumblr site (in which i don't remember the url address) that i'll be going back to this world but it didn't happen 'cos im so lazy to update some stuff about me. So 2012 please bear with me and keep me away from laziness. I love you!.
Warning: This will be a long year starter entry *LOL*
Updates since 2011
So okay it seems 2011 wasn't a good year for me since i've experienced a lot of dramas, heartaches, school catastrophes, family and financial problems but those didn't keep me away from hoping and praying that i would get a better and meaningful future for this year.
I'll be going to elaborate them one by one so here it goes :)
- I'm glad that i passed all my 2nd year subjects in Medicine but i had to take some remedial classes for Pathology ( the most severe subject ever! ) but it only took me 4 days then wooh-la: i PASSED!
- So okay my Birthday (May 5) always coincide with my remedial classes but i enjoyed it haha! i had fun with my med friends. We went to Mister Kabab to have our scrumptious lunch and SM North and I had an uber unexplainable tummy ache (vague abdominal pain) that time! haha maybe because of those yogurt shake! (but im not a lactose intolerant person). In the end, I'm so touched and thankful to my friends for giving me a birthday cake.! I love them :).
- After those remedial class, I let myself lure in for some vacation mode before the classes starts since i can't go out of town (my sis has her own summer class/clinical practice). and i am patiently waiting for that prolonged agonizing news regarding promotion in med school.
- So i've heard the news that i passed, I'm really grateful for that ya Allah. :) but I suddenly felt something that I can't describe. (might be a common feeling of doubts of a med student)
- The month of MAY ended and im so excited for my 3rd year in school that i almost forgot to get a new V-neck uniform *LOL*
- I still can't believe i started to go to school for this year at exactly June 1, wow, that was really an early call for reality check :)). *still don't have a new uniform* so i feel like i was still in 2nd year haha!
- I'm longing for a person that i used to love :)))))))))
- My problems in med school started one by one and we had some financially related problems too (my sis is a dental student, imagine the tuition fee that they were paying for us; hers is 40-50k/sem mine is 83k/sem) that's why my parents decided to sell our house in QC and look for a smaller area but in the end we can't seem to find a good place for a reasonable rental price.
- I knew the results of my prelims were worst (i really first thought of dropping off in med school that time because i really can't concentrate but my mom still convinced me to continue), there comes a time that i allowed myself to woke up late or not attend on lectures. Midterms started, the results? Yup i am finally able to cope up with my low scores but its not enough to make me think im okay with my grades. In the end, I still struggled in my finals because i have to pack up my stuff and go to a new place that i've almost forgot to study and just procrastinate (75%tardiness 25% hard-work) that i might be able to answer some questions :)) LOL (talking about self confidence?huh there you go *fail*).
- i got my iPad2 i really didn't ask for it i just told my dad that i'm going to look at it haha but it's actually helpful for a medicine student like me :)
- I told my mom that i didn't get good grades in this sem and the results will be posted for the next two weeks at that time and as what i expected boom! haha remedial then boom! my efforts and money were wasted ( i should have dropped off really at that time haha!). so okay after that i didn't enrolled myself on second sem and finally stopped going to medicine school temporarily and still coping up with my depressions/anxieties :) but i'm okay now :)
- Okay October: so it's a different feeling now that I'm a house person, I'm broke because I don't have any allowance, I'm always in the house in front of the tv, sometimes I find myself reading medical related stuffs and suddenly missing medicine school (esp. my SAB friends). I don't know if my decision is right but please ALLAH please let me still continue my dreams.
- November came by so as my 1 year warranty on my iPhone4 :))
- As months passes by, these memories made me realize that i should have enjoyed my dreams and continued hoping and thanking ALLAH even for the smallest blessings that I'm receiving.
- December: not really a special month for me since we really don't celebrate christmas :) but i had fun with my family and relatives. bonding time :)
- Then it's January 1, 2012. I smiled while this year started. I want to be an optimistic person :) i will set anxieties aside/swipe those fears away. If Medicine is not for me so be it, but i'm still going to try and continue my journey on being a DOCTOR. Insha'ALLAH.
- My dad will also have more business (it's a secret :D) for this year so cheers for our upcoming 2012 :)
Supercat for 2012 :))
credits to: unknown i just got this somewhere over the net :P
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